Press up

You’ve no eyes


To see your path


And yet you grow


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Pressing onward


Pushing upward


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You trust a sky


You’ve never known


To greet you there


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Pressing onward


Emerging outward


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Did you ever doubt


Your way


Would lead you out?


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Pressing onward


Pushing upward


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Your bud is soft


Your leaves are frail


And still you trust


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Pressing onward


Emerging outward


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Your first journey


Left your trail


Your roots sustain


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Pressing onward


Reaching downward


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All your life they will remain

I Like Bananas.



You may have already heard about my reconciliation with bananas; I’ve told lots of people just because it’s so exciting to me. In case you haven’t heard though, let me explain.

I’ve never liked bananas. When I was little, I tried very hard to like them. They’re a uniquely wonderful fruit—happily yellow and satisfyingly peel-covered. So intense was my dislike that up until last fall, I had only peeled a banana once to my memory.

At the Frisco debate tournament last November, Kathryn and I were talking about bananas and my sad lack of banana peeling experience. From that point on, she made my day by allowing me to peel all of her bananas. Kathryn is a very wonderful person.

In Singapore, one day. I tried a banana. I liked the banana. Ecstatic doesn’t quite cover this new discovery. Joyful, maybe? Peeling [and eating] bananas is now one of my new favorite hobbies.

I’ve changed a lot since I was little, and in some cases I didn’t even know I’ve changed. Eating was once a dangerous occupation fraught with untold dangers. After all, I detested:

  • Cinnamon

  • Mangos

  • Bananas

  • Potatoes

  • Lettuce

  • Fish (other than Salmon)

  • Mayonnaise

  • Spinach

  • Jelly

  • Peanut butter

  • Wheat bread

  • Beans

  • Tomatoes

  • Butter

  • Cheese

  • Corn

  • Bananas

  • Milk

  • The list of foods I hated but now like (or am learning to like) goes on….


Sometimes I get very sick and tired of being myself. Certain weaknesses and personality traits make me want to just run until somehow or other, I leave myself behind. As much as I want to escape myself at times, losing my identity is my single greatest fear. And yet, I’m never really the same person for very long, my interests, passions, questions, and tastes in foods are constantly morphing. I guess what I’m trying to say is that because I change so often, as much as I’d like to, I can’t define myself. God doesn’t change, and so He’s the only one who can actually give me an identity. I thank God that I am His and He knows me  regardless of whether or not I like bananas.

"Adults are just obsolete children" ~Dr. Suess


             “Look at this!” A boy, about four years old with clear hazel eyes, a round nose, a broad face, and cropped sandy hair held a DVD case out for me to see.

                “Wow!” I answered in a whisper so as not to disturb the other library goers.

                I had been watching him climb up the book stand that held a huge open atlas at the top. Just as he had climbed high enough to identify the book lying on top of the stand, his “Mamaw” glanced over at him and told him to climb down.

He lowered his foot, reaching for the ground; he hesitated when his foot didn’t connect with anything. Then he jumped all six inches to the floor.

                With a sigh, he plunked down in the chair beside me. I looked up from pretending to study the chemical reactions governing intracellular respiration in my Advanced Biology text book. I smiled at him.

                He hopped up from his seat and retrieved his book and DVD from his mamaw. Taking his seat, he set the book down, jumped up again, and walked over to me.

               “Look at this!”

               “Wow! Have you seen it?”
                “No, but I have it now.”
                “Which one is your favorite character?”

                He pointed to the yellow boxy claymation character on the front of the case, and he proceeded to explain to me how that character got hit in the head by a snowball. Luckly though, one of the other characters was able to fix it. After he explained to me the intricate details of this TV show, he showed me his book. He had picked it out as a “present for Mamaw.”

                Being four is so much fun. You can talk to people whom you’ve never met before. Thoughts like, “What are they thinking about me?” don’t even begin to occur to you. You haven’t learned to laugh at fewer jokes because you don’t have a “sophisticated sense of humor.” Giving a gift doesn’t have a thing to do with whether or not the receiver keeps the gift.

                Of course, I’d never trade back a single year of my life, but maybe, even while gaining maturity and wisdom, I don’t want to “grow-up…” not in a conventional sense anyway.

The little boy’s Mamaw finished picking out her book and called for him to go.

“Bye!” he waved to me, “My name's Tristan.” He skipped out of the room.